Tuesday, 22 July 2008

minta maaf semua...

assalamualaikum, and greetings to everyone.
first and foremost, i should state here that i am currently emotionally challenged. so, i hope you bare with me. i have no reason, meaning i dont have any specific topic to write about today, just wanting to let you know that i am having a hard time here, and saye mntak maaf awal2 for perangai yg tak menentu. my beloved abah passed away on 24th june. i keep telling myself that i have nothing to regret (refer to the previous post), but i miss him terribly. i know the same goes to each my family member, but the fact that i dont get to see him is killing me. (ya Allah, tabahkan hati ini menempuh dugaan yg maha hebat ini). i got back in plymouth last sunday. i am having problem sleeping at night (plus jet lag) sbab i am so takut everytime i terjage. the first night, i went to bed around 12 sumtin, and i terjage around 4. homesick sangat, sebab i am used to having my family around thru this hard time, but tibe2 bukak mate, dah ade kat uk. its worst than homesick mase kat stf. and i cried everytime i terjage. cried too much that i dont feel quite well now. i called home, everyday. i talked with mum. i am currently staying at mira's (sorry mira, thanks so much for letting me tompang). i noe i cannot continue calling home everyday (nnt mampos nk kene byr bil), and i cannot forever stay in mira's. i am praying that Allah akan ease my burden, and at the same time, i need to help myself as well. to friends, thanks so much. i dnt know how to repay your kindness.
to mak and family,
i hate to admit that i feel so difficult being in this situation now, but i know that Allah tak menguji hambaNya, melainkan dengan ujian yg mampu dipikul hambaNya itu. doakan saya tabah... :) saye mendoakan kesejahteraan semua orang. semoga arwah abah ditempat bersama para solihin.
to friends,
thanks again. so much.
to awatif,
.............. be strong.

ps: isk, aku nk reinvent blog neh la. aku bosan tgk blog sendri. urgh!

6 comments:

minimainimira said...

takpe tiku.
aku pun suka ang tumpang bilik aku..
tak suka tgk ang sedih2 sorg2..
my door is always open for you.
cuma jgn bg aku takut dgn tdoq pkai kain telekung la naa:(

Anonymous said...

hehe.
myra mmg baek jage tiku d sane.
hmm b strong ok tiku.
i know u are.

tp kalo ko nk reinvent blog ni pon aku galakkan je.
haha~

nirzehrun said...

tiku,
sometimes,i wish we were in block 3again where i could just turun 2 ur room......
i'm always here if u need anything
=)

Anonymous said...

dilah!aku pon ada ni.. ;)

alia amirah said...

sume org dh ckp ape aku nk gitau.
just one thing, u r blessed to hv such wonderful friends *like us*, hahahaha.
tiku, tiku.aku syg ko.so take care ok?
edit ah blog, try blogskins.com, situ lawa2 gaks :)

Anonymous said...

kte yang kt Welli pon ade ye kamoo...
(n_n)...take good care of urself...mau pape YM ok?