april

its 9th april today, abah's birthday. on the 14th is mak's birthday.
hurm..how i wish i could go back and celebrate these days with em...
tapi da takleh, nk bt camne kan. sometimes when i was down and low,
in times when i needed something to hold on to..
i find my strength in these lovely people.
i was made up of their quality.
i have mak's spirit in me.
i have abah's love in me.
i will always remember mak for the way mak buat keje.
macam lipas kudung. and i admit, since mak jadi pk hem..i am a bit jealous.
yelah, when i was at home, she'll be away at school.
its like naek pangkat has taken so much of her time. sometimes i ikot mak g skola
and i end up tlg mak bt keje from 8 to 5. now i know that time really fly.
patutla when i call mak, asking when would she be home,
and she said she'll be back at 3pm..she will be back around 5.
at first i will always siap2 nak kuar jalan kul 3,
but when this happen few times..i wudnt bother nak tergedik2 siap awal.
haha. mak klu buat keje..lupe dah ktrg kat umah.. hehe.
takdela. just kidding. i will always love to hang out with mak.
g kedai kain lah.. kailan lah..lepak kat avon pon jadik. tak kesah.
talkin bout spending time with mak, i was not use to it at first
since i spent most of my time kat skola.
so after abes spm, kan dok umah. it felt very weird. jadi tak betah.
but as time goes, i slowly adapt to that situation.
hah, one more thing i have in common ngan mak.
we...LOVE..cats.
we can play with cats for hours. i remember how mak use
to wake me up bile kecik datang umah
(kecik is kucing blakang umah, mak amek die
sbab tamtam mati..)
punye ah susah nak umpan kecik dtg umah
sbab kecik is a stray cat, but mak manage to do it.
and kekadang bile i was very lazy to wake up..
"dilah..kecik mai neh,"
and i will automatically bangun tido and g kat pintu dapur
and find out kecik takde pon
haha..kene tipu.
hurm, yah..i got this cat-obsession
from mak..
and now everytime i call, and if kecik happens to be near
mak will lift kecik and put her near to the phone
so that i can hear kecik's voice..
skang kecik dah branak..ade 4 ekor kittens kat dlm umah
hurm..bestnyer klu bleh balek
bleh maen anak kuceng..
three months cuti before fly arituh, i dont want to work on purpose.
sbab sesaje nak spend time ngan family. in fact i spent it to the fullest.
mcm spend time abes. takde keje..bodek abah mintak bawak g jenjalan.
pastuh, tunggu mak balek skola. g jenjalan lagi. dpt g umah tok pon jadilah.
its not that i am not able to visit tok or mak ngan or makcik on my own..
tapi feeling dpt lepak ngan mak, abah and family tuh cam really a bless for me.
this is because before this tak dpt opportunity like this.
g jalan ngan abah pon best. lepak2 courts mammoth kat sp.
.or g tgk sluar or baju giordano kat pacific.
abah really got a taste in clothing. sbab abah, owangnyer mmg pengemas.
lipat baju 'bertulang'. u shud look at how abah cuci lantai.
owh, ya. activity yang paling seronok ngan abah is....cuci umah.
huh. mule2 g beli brg2 nak cuci umah. detergent and stuff.
lepas tuh..apa lagi, maen air..cuci lantai, cuci toilet..gosok carpet.
hurm..i wish i have abah's talent in ironing.
bile abah ironkan baju kurung nak g kenduri..
nak duduk pon rase bersalah, sbab its too neat.
since abah tak keje dah skarang..i think he does every ironing at home.
smoge abah sronok dok umah. haih..apsal la lambat lagi nak balek.
bleh tak nak join seniors balek ujong taun neh?
nak ganti tempat derang ah. nak balek!! wawawawa..
besok mesti derang makan kek kat umah. tak pon kuar makan.
or makan sesedap kat umah, sbab abah kene jage makan skang. hurm..rindu!!!
i am so thankful for having the opportunity to grow up in love and care,
to have a chance to know what is love. this is the kind of love that lifts me up.
no matter how terrible i was, or i am, or might be..
my family is the one i can count on to. because they are apart of me.
wish to write more, but i cant. im gettin too emotional now. da~

psst: abah, mak..have a wonderful birthday, and i appreciate what uve done for me all this while. there is no way i can pay it back. ure carved in my heart. love you lots!