thank you,Allah.

25th dec 2004

best2..g jenjalan kat pasar malam balek pulau. siap dapat paw kak melia belikan cd justin timberlake lagi..hehe. mlm krismas kan. mat saleh melambak kat penang. hai..penang2. napela mat saleh suke dtg penang. i wonder. awal pagi br smpai umah..biase ah. klu da bjalan. mmg tak ingat dunie.

26th dec 2004
0900

plan nak g batu feringhi ah petang neh. lame ktrg tak mandi laut. yeeha!
breakfast-bob,si kuceng juling, lari kuar umah. isk. peningla plak...apsal ah hanger kat ampaian berayun. nape van pakteh kat depan umah cam tak stabil. rase cam tak kene ah plak. pastuh sume orang lari kuar umah. takpela. takyah g mandi laut. kte g kenduri sudah.

1330
kenduri umah kawan abah
buletin 1.30-tsunami kat acheh
owh..kat acheh. sian derang
2000
buletin utama
rupenyer ombak tsunami smpai kat penang. kat batu feringhi.

thats was years ago. and now, i still think about it. after that date, sometimes i dream about being in the sea,while it happen. i wonder, if we went to batu feringhi on that day, will i still be here. even i, (i consider myself as someone who is not involved with tsunami) tremble when i think about it. imagining what it feels like to be in the water, helpless. i can only hope for miracle.
so here i am, thinking about everything i have done. the countless sin that i committed. tonight, there is one thing that moves me.

surah al-a'araf, 82:
"...sesungguhnya mereka adalah orang-orang yang berpura-pura mensucikan diri"

i am afraid to get in the water. yeah, dr kecik..takot nak mandi laut. coz we dont know whats inside it. but i love to sit on the sand and adore the view. kdg2 mcm terpk, is this the same wave that leads to a catastrophic disaster, years ago. semua kuase tuhan. dtg dari Die, untuk kite.. to learn a lesson. and gunekan mase yg ade..selagi sempat. insyaAllah. amin.