Do you believe?

"Surely Allah has purchased of the believers their lives and their belongings and in return has promise that they shall have paradise. They fight in the way of Allah and slay and be slain...."

"Those who constantly turn to Allah in repentance, who constantly worship Him, who celebrate His praise, who go about the world to serve His cause, who bow down to Him,who prostrate themselves before him, who enjoin what is good and forbid what is evil, and who keep the limits set by Allah. Announce glad tidings to such believers"

At-Taubah: 111-112

Bila dipikir2kan, sebenarnya kita neh tak berharta kan? Body pinjam, umur pinjam, sume pinjam. Selame2 hidup neh, rupenye baru tersedar yang kite hidup atas ihsan Allah. kalau Allah tak bagi kesihatan untuk kita, mmg tak sehat la kan. Hurm. This is actually a respond for the book 'Return of the Pharoah' by Zainab al-Ghazali. If i were to preach about the content, it would be no use. You can look for the book and read it yourself.

The book made me reflect on us, the youth that lives in our comfort zone. Comfort zone here does not means living in luxury, buy having the luxury yang kita tak nampak. Apa comfort zone kite ek? Kite..(you and me, our friends) live in good health with just occasional fever or flu...fatigueness. We insyaAllah normally have morsels to eat. We have time in our hands and we still have the strength to do the chores.

Lalu kemana agaknya kita belanja kan 'allowance' kita? Aduh, bila saye reflect, saya risau dan takut. Banyak mana sangat la kebaikan yang saya dah buat, berbanding yang tak berapa baik? Bayangkan kalau kita ada jam pasir kan, rupanya waktu kita hanya beberapa hari lagi...atau pun sampai kejap lagi je. eisy. chuak.

In the book i mention above, kalau nk dicompare the way manusia2 kental neh diseksa...saya rasa second day saya kat penjara pn saya dah innalillah kot. disebat berulang2 kali..bukan dalam masa sehari..tapi berminggu2. Bila pengsan, diberi some substances supaya kita sedar balek, bukan untuk diubati tapi untuk diseksa. bukan setakat fizikal, malahan mental pon kene seksa.

Kerdilnya saya rasa bila membaca tentang perjuangan tokoh2 yang bermatian menghidupkan Islam di muka bumi, sedang kita...kita sendiri cuba membunuh Islam yang ada dalam diri. Astaghfirullah, takut dan risau kalau taubat tak diterima. Tapi Allah dah cakap kat atas tuh (112), jika kita balek kepada Allah, dan menghidupkan agama ini...sangat beruntung. Masya Allah.

8 days and counting. Malam2 semakin lena. Alhamdulillah masalah tidur satu bulan lebih dah okay. Saye sbnarnye agak nervous nk balek Malaysia. On one side, i am excited, undeniably...to go back. Nk lawat kubur arwah abah, nk tengok satu-satu wajah yang hanya Allah yang tahu betapa aku rindu. Abes la kuceng2 di rumah, mak kucing dah balek. Hehe.