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SAYE SANGAT SEDIH NK TINGGAL BEETHOVEN!!!

Do you believe?

"Surely Allah has purchased of the believers their lives and their belongings and in return has promise that they shall have paradise. They fight in the way of Allah and slay and be slain...."

"Those who constantly turn to Allah in repentance, who constantly worship Him, who celebrate His praise, who go about the world to serve His cause, who bow down to Him,who prostrate themselves before him, who enjoin what is good and forbid what is evil, and who keep the limits set by Allah. Announce glad tidings to such believers"

At-Taubah: 111-112

Bila dipikir2kan, sebenarnya kita neh tak berharta kan? Body pinjam, umur pinjam, sume pinjam. Selame2 hidup neh, rupenye baru tersedar yang kite hidup atas ihsan Allah. kalau Allah tak bagi kesihatan untuk kita, mmg tak sehat la kan. Hurm. This is actually a respond for the book 'Return of the Pharoah' by Zainab al-Ghazali. If i were to preach about the content, it would be no use. You can look for the book and read it yourself.

The book made me reflect on us, the youth that lives in our comfort zone. Comfort zone here does not means living in luxury, buy having the luxury yang kita tak nampak. Apa comfort zone kite ek? Kite..(you and me, our friends) live in good health with just occasional fever or flu...fatigueness. We insyaAllah normally have morsels to eat. We have time in our hands and we still have the strength to do the chores.

Lalu kemana agaknya kita belanja kan 'allowance' kita? Aduh, bila saye reflect, saya risau dan takut. Banyak mana sangat la kebaikan yang saya dah buat, berbanding yang tak berapa baik? Bayangkan kalau kita ada jam pasir kan, rupanya waktu kita hanya beberapa hari lagi...atau pun sampai kejap lagi je. eisy. chuak.

In the book i mention above, kalau nk dicompare the way manusia2 kental neh diseksa...saya rasa second day saya kat penjara pn saya dah innalillah kot. disebat berulang2 kali..bukan dalam masa sehari..tapi berminggu2. Bila pengsan, diberi some substances supaya kita sedar balek, bukan untuk diubati tapi untuk diseksa. bukan setakat fizikal, malahan mental pon kene seksa.

Kerdilnya saya rasa bila membaca tentang perjuangan tokoh2 yang bermatian menghidupkan Islam di muka bumi, sedang kita...kita sendiri cuba membunuh Islam yang ada dalam diri. Astaghfirullah, takut dan risau kalau taubat tak diterima. Tapi Allah dah cakap kat atas tuh (112), jika kita balek kepada Allah, dan menghidupkan agama ini...sangat beruntung. Masya Allah.

8 days and counting. Malam2 semakin lena. Alhamdulillah masalah tidur satu bulan lebih dah okay. Saye sbnarnye agak nervous nk balek Malaysia. On one side, i am excited, undeniably...to go back. Nk lawat kubur arwah abah, nk tengok satu-satu wajah yang hanya Allah yang tahu betapa aku rindu. Abes la kuceng2 di rumah, mak kucing dah balek. Hehe.

9 days and counting

I am counting days...not to be a mum, but to run in the arms of the beloved people back in Malaysia. I am here not to babble about my emotion because i think the excitement to leave, the 'dragging feet to board the last bas' is understood. Here i am, to reflect on the almost two years duration i have spend, and look at the things i have observed and learned.

The Positive Side

1. The reading culture.
I hate to talk about this because i know people who will be reading this are most likely the people who are close to me. They know how i like 'reading'. Mind you, i like reading and i like to read are two different things. The reading culture here is something that amazes me the first time i stepped outta the plane, and until now. I am so moved about this beneficial habit because i realize that the effect is so great that it is more to benefit rather than the other side of it. I am interested in this topic, so i did about 'Encouraging Reading for Meaning' for my dissertation and i hope Allah give me chance to pursue this topic in my further study. Imagine a country full of people who love books. Wouldnt be a great resource because people who read is people who think. If not, the first ayat reveal to the prophet would be Iqra', wouldnt it? Here, in two years time i trained myself to read. Starting from half a page a day before sleep, now i read quite regularly. But not an avid reader or book addict yet. Even if i am, i think that is a good addiction.

2. Punctuality
The bus, the train and of course the people (well, not all but most) are on time. Not late, not early...just on time. I would not elaborate on this for we all know 'our Malaysian time' - the attitude Malaysian has when it comes to time management. Hurm, i am terrible at this. Truly, i am. Adoi.

3. Working
Ha, time neh baru tawu langit tinggi rendah. Ive been working since April 2008 and last friday is my last working day. Tangan dah berkematu but it gives me satisfaction. i get to know different people, i learn to handle myself for work - preparing the documents, claiming tax, naek turun pejabat cukai and urge people to refund my tax. I would say that most of the companies that i worked for are very effective when they deal with thr worker. Its not that in Malaysia there is no company that possess this characteristic, but this is something that we could look up to, and learn.

Be back for the other side of the story.

sape tawu makne boring?

Salam and muah2 to readers,

Boring tau nggak kawan2? Aduh. Lagi 12 hari nk balek and i am surrounded with silence and coldness that makes me feel like hibernating. Uish. I dont like to be in this condition. Cube kasik tau ape2 idea untuk hilangkan keboringan aku neh..setakat ini aku hanya mampu mengisi masa dengan membaca buku. Nk tgk movie online takde mood. nk browse2 utube pn takde mood. aku cume nk balek msia aje. Kalau ade beetho ok la sket.

ok bye.

nothing comes for free

i cant sit still, i am always moving around. i am having a hard time to focus, especially in class. even if it is only a one-hour class..i find it difficult to sit for such a long time. every now and then i need to off-task. ill go to toilet, i flip open my phone and check the contacts for no reason.

almost two years here, ive learnt one thing - nothing comes for free. You want a job, seek. You want new friends, go out and mingle. From a view...Islam is not a miraculous religion. If you dont work for it, you get nothing. Sedangkan nk pahala pn kena usaha, even the effort does not show (like pray for your friends).

this is not random. i am writing this for i have an exam tomorrow. this is the first time in life that i study. i never really study before. not for pmr, not for spm. i wonder if i did study for those exams...i might be on the path to be a verterinar. Owh...how wonderful. But this is the path laid down for me. The path for me to venture till the time comes for me to leave. With that, i hope to purify myself along the way, so ill be granted Jannah.

jalan menuju syurga itu bukanlah jalan yang indah, kerana nikmat di syurga terlalu mengasyikkan. tentunya mahar untuk ke sana bukan sebarang mahar, mahar yang menuntut manusia berperang dengan diri sendiri. Allah, kdgkala terlalu sukar untuk mengawal diri...tapi aku yakin janji Allah itu pasti.

All the best kawan2!

psst: glad that mak's home now. Not gonna disturb her for the moment, let her rest. she's not very well. (pesanan untuk kakmam)

tamat masa berhibernasi

Assalamualaikum and hye readers!

Back to blogging i guess. Ngee. Mcm lame je tak menulis, ecewah. Pdhal tak pn kan. Heh. So, the dissertation is over, packing pn dah. Cume yg last2 minute tuh nnt kite pack. Now tak seswai. This is cliche, but ill say it anyway. Lots of things are swimming in my head, so i cannot put my sentences right. Better that i stop here, kan. Stay tune for the next post. Tata..mish you all. phewit!

Love,
Tiku