malas

dear blog,

i am sorry, i dont have time for you.
it is like, malas la nk tules.
sume owang pon berblog,
so, there's nothing special anymore.
i am really sorry to hurt you, blog.
sometimes,
the thought is more complex,
and it is very hard to write it down,
precise-interestingly.
coz its not.
so, i am paying more attention to
my blog kat theredzone,
where i have specific topic to talk about:
the band. hey, but i wont stop.
just hybernating.
it's getting cold anyway.
i am too lazy now.

chiows!

it's not bad after all

sigh~.

1. phone tinggal dlm cab
i left it mase pegi peity. tak perasan. gelak2...trus kuar. so not me, sbab the most important thing once you're walking out of a cab, is to look back. i never forget to do that. but that day, i did. well, the phone is at the police station now, so i can go this afternoon and pick it up. alhamdulillah.

2. pening nk pk psal gigi
aku takut dentist. and i asked for sedation. and it will cost me like 500 to 600 pound! no way. ill go for local anaesthetic anyway. the treatment without the sedation will only cost me 44.60. jauh beza. dah. takyah nk buang duet. kate nk bawak mak dtg sini. dah besar kan, dah 21 pon. siap keje nk cr duet lagi. i know how hard it is, keje nk cr duet. pegi keje dlm ujan, ribut. basah kuyup. flu pon kene g keje jugak. so i am careful with my money now. takkan la selamenyer nk boros menggila. klu kakmam, mesti die tak pegi yg sedation tu jugak.

i talked to fran on friday...
tiku: fran...i need to get my toothe removed. i opt for root canal treatment.
fran: owh, that fine. its nothing at all. better than filling. and the best thing is you will still have your tooth.
tiku: argh. but i am afraid of the dentist.
fran: nah, its nothing. you wont feel anything. you will get numb, wont you. cmon tiku, you're all keyed up. when you got back, you will thing" how foolish i am for being afraid. i dont know what i am afraid of actually".

sorry for people who are getting sick of listening to me whining about the dentist. i think it has to stop since i dont care anymore. i will just wait for my mouth ulcer to heal, and then i will go for that root canal. nk saket ke nak baek?

so, i think nothing to worry about now. ramadhan dah nk abes pon. jom, ramai meriahkan 10 mlm terakhir neh.

Athansios Chatziagyriou

awatif: woi, saket gigi tuh mampu membuatkan aku saket kepala selama seminggu tau!!

adilah: patut la ank saket kpala smpy tak p keja.

awatif: siyes saket. smpy aku nk bt smayang hajat la, mintak Allah sembuhkan saket gigi, tanpa
perlu ke dentist.

adilah: ade ke cenggitu...??

tiku: die mmg bengong

awatif: isk...dok berdenyut2...mak kata takdak owang mati g dentist

adilah: yelah, mmg takde pon. g la arineh. kan ade slot free for you owang tuh ckp tadi.

awatif: tapi aku ada mouth ulcer la. saket nnt.

adilah: alah, dulu dr wan harzita pon tgk gg ank masa ank ada mouth ulcer, but then die letak
ubat kan kat situ...

tiku: alasan tanak g dentist tuh...

awatif: isk...kb pon gelakkan aku pagi tadi. hehe. malu weyh. nape la owang yg takut dentist yg
suke makan manis.
aku yg takut dentist=aku suke makan manis=aku kene jumpe dentist yang aku takut tuh.

adilah: takut..takutla. abes klu saket...camna? kan mak kata skali p, hilang masalah.

awatif: aku nk bt flapjack lagi, nk p keja lagi...satgi kalo tak sempat camna?

tiku: tgk! tengok tuh...ALASAN!

adilah: abes, dah klu takut tak sempat, yg dok mengadap komputer lagi btpa?

awatif: aku nk menenangkan diri aku....takut tau ngak. korang, smayang hajat kat aku. baca
yasin suma. mak pon kata nnt tepon dia bila nk p dentist. dia baca doa.doa mak mujarab tau.

tiku: isk. dia dok membebel tak abeh2..
.
adilah: cik awatif, g la mandi sume2...buat flapjack. lepas zuhur, siap g dentist sume. saket itu
kifarah dosa. weekend neh, kan ank dah bleh relax. lagipon, dah nk start kelas. dah nk
smpy 10 mlm last ramadhan. klu saket, camne????

here's one thing:

I went to the dentist again. Once more, a thoroughly unpleasant experience, but I did certainly feel better afterwards. I think that going to the dentist is one of those experiences where the anticipation and dread is actually much worse than the event itself. Asking your boss for a raise, or telling him/her that you cannot finish something on time probably rank in the same category, as does asking a girl out for a date for the first time. They all produce that familiar queasiness in the stomach, and the occasional cold sweat. But, once the deed is done, you wonder what you worried so much about.

regard to:Gary's boring blog,Saitama, Japan.

ps: kat atas tuh name dentist aku kat sini...aku pon tatawu nk sebut.

johnny: what i am going to say now...may not be helping you. if you cant be lovers, be friends. thats not a bad thing.

seung-mi: i dont feel consoled.

johnny: you're right. its heart-breaking. when you cannot have someone, it's very painful. even though its painful and you dont want to see that person anymore. in the end, if you lose a valuable friend, thats even more painful.

...it is...

not feeling well

i was out with Nad yesterday. i realized that i am not feeling very well lately. hurm. here are the symptoms:

1. difficulty to spell...
eg: symtom? bussiness?

2. everytime jln masuk boots, mesti ttbe ade je mende nk kene beli
eg: mouthwash, handwash

3. suddenly everything in sports world mcm tak penah tgk...
(padahal masuk sportsworld everytime turun town)

4. bile tgk cite korea, saket kpale hilang. bile nk g keje, ttbe rase nk demam.

5. tak boleh nk decide nk makan ape.
(selame neh pon bukan aku yg bagi cadangan kan...isk. pelikla tiku!)

6. plan nk beli baju kaler merah or purple, tapi tangan ttp membeli baju kaler biru.
(mungkin aku color-blind)

7. gelabah bile matahari dah nk naek
(sebab aku belom tido lagi)

8. mule menulis post yg tak tentu arah motifnya.

Tagged....by putput

1.Are you fasting right now?
i am. belom ponteng lagi.

2. What would you like to have for buka?
couscous. all time favourite

3. Describe Malaysia's politics(currently) in one word
hay-wired

4.What u like ur boyfriend to call u the most?
love

5) What are the five things that would absolutely make u happy?
- maen kuceng
- bersukan(anything will do) smpy peluh menggila
- Adidas...even only a socks
- sit in bed, reading books
- lepak ngan mak..mak mmg cool

6) Who tagged you?
Puteri Syurga A. Malik

7) Describe the person who tagged you
Prof Maths

ape aku nk bt kalu aku pregnant?

whoa...pregnant best sbab aku ade sebab nk makan tak stop.

1. aku akan makan choc tak ingat dunie...
(pastuh aku jadi ibu mude diabetes?)

2. aku mmg nk mlantak french fries alla time
(ibu mude yg saket jantung?)

3. aku nk tido banyak2...
(ko nk jadi ibu mude yg bermate sembab ke tiku?)

4. aku nak................

isk...aku bukan pregnant pon.

rock kapak

sape ingat shamrin?? ha, angkat tangan cepat!lately neh asek layan rock kapak. ntah la nape. mule2 dengar rock kapak rase...rase ROCK ah. but then , after a while, rase syahdu...nape ek?

i think i started to involve in rock kapak mase kat umah maktok,ade hi fi besar kat umah maktok. kat bawah ade satu radio sony yg time dulu tuh, kire mahal ah. kat dlm bilek pak chaq pon ada satu hi fi besaq. wah, i think he saved menggila nk beli mende tuh. sony plak tuh. time dulu mmg la mahal kan. so whats up with umah mak tok and lagu sharim? ceh, cam takde link.

i was sent to umah maktok, umah pengasuh ah neh. maktok ade la talian darah ngan aku. aku suke and tak suke dok umah maktok. suke sebab maktok time makan mmg di suap. sebab tuh aku bulat. siyes. aku sangat bulat time tih. tapi part tak best bile maktok slalu kurung aku dlm umah. once mak dtg amek aku je, aku akan kayuh basikal laju2. ala2 nk melarikan diri dr maktok. part best lagi satu is maktok suke memasak. klu karipap, nnt mesti ade karipap special utk aku. 'karipap takde inti'. klu time maktok memasak, aku mesti ditugaskan cabut rambut2 kat buah kelapa. alah, kan kelape bile dah dibuang sabut, kan botak. tapi ade lagi sket rabut2 halus. so, aku kene cabut sampai licin. sbnanyer aku rase maktok bt camneh supaye aku stay kat dapur, depan mate die. senang la die nk tengok aku, sambil memasak.

aku paling lega bile arwah tok ayah balek. mesti best. ade sekali die kasik aku try isap rokok dunhil. tak best. skl jugak yg best. nnt klu tok ayah balek, rase selamat dr kegarangan mak tok. aku suke dok ngan tok ayah.

after a few years,once aku dah start skola, aku slalu dtg sane, but not on daily basis. g umah mak tok, mesti rase special. yelah, sbab aku penah dok situ. rase cam balek umah sendri.

(tiku, owang nk tau nape rock kapak ngan umah maktok ade link!!!)

ok2...kat umah maktok, pak chaq slalu la pasang radio. secare tak lgsg, telinge aku dah biase dengar lagu2 neh. tambah plak bile balek umah, kak melia pon ala2 zaman dengar rock kapak. kakmelia mmg merapu, dah la suke bace buku mangga. isk. balek ke pakchaq yg slalu bawak balek barbie utk aku, dr situ lah bermula nya penglibatan aku dlm arena rock kapak. so, now bile teringat rock kapak, rase teringat umah maktok.

(abes, nape syahdu plak?)

syahdu sebab...

1. mase tok ayah meninggal, aku tak sempat balek sebab aku off phone sbab arituh aku emo. klu aku on phone, aku mesti sempat balek. sampai now, fon aku slalu ade kat tangan, makesure bateri ok, ade space utk msg masuk. tak kire la ape berita pon, yg pentng aku tawu on the dot. i cannot reverse this, and i hate myself for being emo at that time. until now, bile aku nk start emo (aku mmg owang yg emo), aku try buat2 bodoh. klu tak ley pon, aku try tanak layan.

2. aku dah taktawu mak tok kat mane. ade family crisis, and maktok dah tak brape nk ingat sangat. the last time jumpe, die pon dah ckp merepek2. dengar cite die kat umah sedare die...tapi aku tatawu kat mane. aku mmg nk g jumpe maktok. family crisis tak family crisis. yg penting, aku mmg sayang die.

3. ape la pak chaq buat skang neh. family crisis pon crisis lah. aku tanak end the bond.

conclusion: aku nk tawu mane kubur arwah tok ayah, aku nk tawu mane maktok ang pakchaq. i wanna keep in touch balek. tak kisah la ape pon, yg penting, aku ade memori ngan derang neh. al-fatihah untuk arwah tok ayah. dilah mintak maaf, tak balek mase tok ayah meninggal. it is my fault. and i regret it until now.

how do i put this into words?

SCREAM! i hate to put this into words, because i wont be able to. hate the way you think you know me, hate the way you think you know every woman you've met. but you dont. dont judge my emotion, coz you do not know how to read it. gosh. i should stop before i break your heart. please forgive me. forgive me. forgive.