a reason behind everything.

abah..heart problem, tok..kencing manis..im far from home. how worse can it be? i would say im facing hard time to deal with this. its really hard, trying to live my life here, while my mind is thinking about them. there's not a single moment i am not worried. i wont write in detail coz im afraid this will make me cry. Allah puts you in troubled water not to drown you, but to cleanse you. i take this as some test from Him, to test my patience, to keep me close to Him. and as a reminder, that i am just a slave of Allah. i have no idea how long i will stay calm, i just pray that He will be by myside. Amin.